here's to start the day

sala scene:

things weren't smooth when he came in for lit.
he made me go home.
i went to church for ash wednesday purposes alone.
i walked under the rain alone.
i wasn't receiving any news. i was probably going to spend the night alone.
and just when i thought things weren't going to be okay when i close my eyes tonight, a text came.


26-Feb-2009
00:27:34




it read:
"Naa ko gawas n.u blay.last lod nlng ni. :-)"

gate scece:

boyfriend: mcdo delivery.
girlfriend: *SHOCKED.
boyfriend: dli rako magdugay. n.ari ra ko to say sorry. sorry kay wala ko sa mood ganina. and i love you.
girlfriend: umm. ummm. :) :) :)

my words failed me but my heart was suddenly out of control.
he never fails :)


after minutes, these were the ones left.



you're shittingly and addictively sweet.


i love you, my own and 'self-preserved' mcdo delivery man.
:)

resurrect

dear blog,
i have abandoned you for exactly 5 months and 2days now.
i left you because you dwelled so much of the past.
you were so full of someone i assumed i was with. your words, your speech paralleled him as if he were a god. and even with those months of not writing, even with the silence, it was obvious of whom you beated for.

but what niel has to know is that you were the only one holding on as i walked away. it was not me who felt for james, neither my heart. it was you.
i was ready to completely forget when you pull me in again by being mute.
and because i was afraid too of losing my soul, i wrote until there was nothing to write. there was nothing to write because the feelings have dried. there was nothing to write because even from the start, there was never us.

what niel has to know is that whatever were posted here before he came, do not hold true for the present anymore. my heart had long enough flew from the vice and has find its home in him. he needs to know that i never had something real until i had him.

he needs to know that i love him.

and due to constantly hopping over tez and raph's accounts, i couldnt help get jealous on how everyone has been upblog-dating.

ergo, the decision to reopen.

new posts.
new start.
new love.


and take note, it's eiffel on the left. id change that look but only if i find a better one to trade over paris.