forget not

that 13th when we had each other above the city.
the good times do not seem to pass, after all.

...

I do not love you except because I love you;
I go from loving to not loving you,
From waiting to not waiting for you
My heart moves from cold to fire.

I love you only because it's you the one I love;
I hate you deeply, and hating you
Bend to you, and the measure of my changing love for you
Is that I do not see you but love you blindly.

Maybe January light will consume
My heart with its cruel
Ray, stealing my key to true calm.

In this part of the story I am the one who
Dies, the only one, and I will die of love because I love you,
Because I love you, Love, in fire and blood

--pablo neruda

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because when it is about you, the end and the start are too hard to accomplish.
as together, they are one.


when it is about you, my pen comes short.
my words are weaker in comparison to my heart.
as even if the only job is to improve a canvass, you are too abstract to work upon.

and i concede to defeat first because i do not want to under-word you.

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you know that i have asked about this, and i have it now.
my words couldn't be grateful enough.
that for all things life could have turned to be,
love turned you to me.
----random

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i love you.
because i know no other way.

happy 5th.

anthem/s

this is probably the most sincere song guys could sing to their girls:
(i loved this the moment i heard it. and yes, even if it makes me cry. [at times] )


Sometimes we wish for the better
When we have it good as it gets
Sometimes the grass isn't greener
Sometimes we find out we forget
Sometimes the fool doesn't know he's a fool
Sometimes a dog he don't know he's a dog
Sometimes I do stupid things to you
When I really don't mean it all

Sometimes a man
Is gon' be a man
It's not an excuse
It's just how it is
Sometimes the wrong
Don't know that they're wrong
Sometimes the strong
Ain't always so strong
Sometimes a girl
Is gon' be a girl
She don't wanna deal with all the drama in your world
God knows I don't mean to give it to you
So girl I'm sorry for the stupid things I wish I didn't do but I do
Oh so sorry, oh no, oh so sorry

Sometimes I wish I was smarter
Wish I was a bit more like you
Not making stupid decisions made at the last minute
You live to regret when it's through

Well, sometimes the fool doesn't know he's a fool
And sometimes a dog he don't know he's a dog
Sometimes I do stupid things to you
When I really didn't mean it all

Sometimes a man
Is gon' be a man
It's not an excuse
It's just how it is
Sometimes the wrong
Don't know that they're wrong
Sometimes the strong
Can't always be strong
Sometimes a girl
Is gon' be a girl
She don't wanna deal with all the drama in your world
God knows I don't mean to give it to you
So girl I'm sorry for the stupid things I wish I didn't do but I do

Sometimes the fool doesn't know he's a fool
Sometimes a dog he don't know he's a dog
Sometimes I do stupid things to you
When I really didn't mean it at all, at all

Sometimes a man
Is gon' be a man
It's not an excuse
It's just how it is
Sometimes the wrong
Don't know that they're wrong
Sometimes the strong
Ain't always so strong
Sometimes a girl
Is gon' be a girl
She don't wanna deal with all the drama in your world
God knows I don't mean to give it to you
So girl I'm sorry for the stupid things I wish I didn't do but I do

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and then, sway to this.

I'll take care of you
Don't be sad, don't be blue
'Cause I'll never break your heart in two
'Cause I'll take care of you

I'll kiss your tears away
I'll end your lonely days
All that I'm really trying to say
Is I'll take care of you

I want you to know
That I love you so
I'm proud to tell the world you're mine
I've said it before,
I'll say it once more,
You'll be in my heart 'till the end of time

I'll take care of you,
Don't be sad, don't be blue
Just count on me your whole life through
And I'll take care of you


And I'll take care,
I'll take care of you..

make-up

i know i haven't been writing about you. and i know that you curse me for that.

i know i have been too much of the opposite poles--too shy and too proud into shouting that you are the one.

i know i haven't been perfect-- certainly not the girl who could wear white and not spill on it.

i know you found phrases that seemed too familiar. and faces you would trade the world for to just not catch a glimpse.

i know what i have broken.

your heart.

but even if you caught how my past was at the most unlikely time, i vow that from today my speech will be of the present.

of now.

of us.

they may have lurked here for too long but too long is over.

this time, this shall be your domain.

they may have once had my words, but you have them for a lifetime.

even if my pen fails you, know that my heart never will.

there.

it has all been too painful.


i need to speak out.