afterparty after effect

after doses of margarita, beer and tequila... i am on to blogging.
:)

heart anthem

I gotta say what’s on my mind.
Something about us, doesn’t seem right... these days.
Life keeps getting in the way.Whenever we try,
somehow the plan is always rearranged.

It’s so hard to say,
but I gotta do what’s best for me.
You’ll be okay...

I’ve got to move on, and be who I am.
I just don’t belong here,
I hope you understand.
We might find our place in this world someday,
but at least for now,
I gotta go my own way.

Don’t wanna leave it all behind.
But I get my hopes up and I watch them fall every time.
Another color turns to grey.
And it’s just too hard... to watch it all... slowly fade away.

I'm leaving today
cause I gotta do what’s best for me.
You’ll be okay...

I’ve got to move on, and be who I am.
I just don’t belong here,
I hope you understand.
We might find our place in this world someday,
but at least for now,
I gotta go my own way.


TROY:
What about us?
What about everything we’ve been through?


GABRIELLA:
What about trust?


TROY:
You know I never wanted to hurt you.


GABRIELLA:
What about me?


TROY:
What am I supposed to do.......

GABRIELLA:
I gotta leave but I’ll miss you

TROY:
...miss you.

GABRIELLA LEAD, TROY AD-LIBS
So I’ve got to move on, and be who I am.
(Troy: why do you have to go)
I just don’t belong here,
I hope you understand.
(Troy: trying to understand)
We might find our place in this world someday,
but at least for now,
(Troy: I want you to stay)
I gotta go my own way.

I’ve got to move on, and be who I am.
(Troy: what about us?)
I just don’t belong here,
I hope you understand.
(Troy: trying to understand)
We might find our place in this world someday.
but at least for now,
I gotta go my own way.

I've gotta go my own way,
I've gotta go my own way

how hard is it for someone to bounce back from something that has never ended?

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hard, i guess.

THE TENSION OF OPPOSITES
--An excerpt from Tuesdays with Morrie


"Have I told you about the tension of opposites?" he says.

The tension of opposites?

"Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted..

"A tension of opposites, like a pull on a rubber band. And most of us live somewhere in the middle."

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that explains me.

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Leaving sometimes isn't a matter of choice. It's coming back that is.

-patricia evangelista, blonde and blue eyes

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over junk

for striking emotions as if they were ebony and ivory keys
for never sparing me a night of self-induced k.OA.han slash drama
for endorsing tears
i know should be cursing you right now...

you lied.

kid. or joked. whatever.


but i am glad you did.

because by it,
i have found my way back to my pen.
and
i wouldn't have known how much you weighed.
here. inside.

thank you, my SB THTH.

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p.s
don't do it again, ha?
mamatai nako.
hehe

my heart just died

i have been gone for quite some time. i have traded my pen over pencils drafting health assessment forms, nursing care plans, soapies, hospital charts and all those nursing whatevers.
it hurts not to write. but it hurts more when you refuse the call to write over reasons of 'i just cant'.

he broke the news this morning.
that he won't be around tomorrow. and perhaps, for the days ahead. i was from head to toe wishing he'd take his words back. but he,too, was from head to toe wishing he could. my heart just died. and i am running out of better reasons to wake up in the morning.

that's why i came running back to my pen.
wishing that even for the least chances, writing could stitch whatever is torn.

AND

i am in between. again.

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save me.

stagnant

borrowing mcarthur's words...

"i shall return."

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watch out.

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ka-uyon. ; p