As deep as it gets.

Perhaps if you had been with me through my worst then you will understand all the refusal.

We'd love each other too much our selves would be consumed. When you left, I did not only lose the only man I held on to and believed in, I also lost myself. And I can't, I just cannot, let that happen again. God knows how struggling it was to get me through another day. But if there was anything you taught me, then it was to love myself more than anyone else. And that is exactly what I am doing now. I am standing up for my choices because finally, I have realized my worth.

It puzzles me how we wonderfully start it off every time yet at the last minute lose it altogether.  Can it not continue to be wonderful and void of the past just for a night? Can we not find reasons on why we lost what we lost and five years back, find ourselves with each other again?

We all know where this would lead us. So maybe this is the way it has to be.
Just You. Me. And This.